Only time will tell

So I guess I over reacted yesterday. My friend wasn't ignoring me, he was just busy. I can understand that now but before I just let my emotions get the best of me and could only think that he must be avoiding me, that he only said he wanted to see me because he knew he wouldn't have to. I need to work on my whole self esteem issues in that area. I mean he said he wanted to hang out so why wouldn't it be that there was a good reason that we didn't. He was really sweet about it too and seemed genuinely sorry that we couldn't see each other. I think I just worried so much b/c I'm starting to like him a lot and that scares me. I just want him to like me too. It's stupid to worry about this stuff now because I'm not going to be able to see him for a long time. I don't know why I had to start liking him now but it's really bad timing. I guess I'll just hope for the best and see where it goes. I remember liking him in high school for a little while too...maybe that's why it seems like I like him already now. Maybe those feeling never left completely and I just brought them to the surface. This whole online flirtation thing is never good. Things can be taken out of context online and stuff you wouldn't normally say, you do. Maybe I don't even like him at all? Hmm...only time will tell I suppose.

Why can't boys just say what they mean

Everything is always a guessing game. Did he mean that the way I think he did? It's hard to say. I'm starting to think I just can't interpret things right. No, scratch that, boys just need to be more direct. How come when you were on the other side of the country you were all about us hanging out and how it sucked that we couldn't and now you're here and I haven't heard anything from you. I just thought I would maybe get a call or a message, something. You didn't even tell me you were coming. I had to find out from your facebook. That hurts my feelings because I thought we might have something. It's not like I don't know you, so the fact that we talked online and might feel more doesn't seem so crazy to me. I guess I just forget that there are no girls around there for you to flirt with and maybe I don't mean anything I'm just a girl for you to flirt with because there aren't any worth it around. Now that I'm around, I'm the one thats not worth it. You gotta love that feeling.